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There is a war inside my head
I'm fighting a war with myself
My body
My mind
My thoughts
On the rough terrain of the cerebellum
My feat are starting to hurt
I'm getting weary
For going out every day fighting the pain
Trying to stop it from trickling down to my heart
And every night gun shots inside my eardrums
Trying to penetrate the thick wall my depression has put up
Separating me from the rest of the war
Maybe someday the war will end
And I can go home and be happy
Every soldiers dream
This war is weakness and anger against itself
Others judge me, standing trying to block out my own screams
They don't see a solider
Just a teenage girl
And her problems
They think the reason I cry is because I have had a rough life
Not because everyday the walls of this depression fall in closer
That it's a normal feat for a teenager
So let them judge
This is a one-person war
I am my own worst enemy
With battle scars to prove it
If they could imagine their worst day
Magnify that by ten
Then maybe they would know what I am fighting against living
Every day, as the sun brings light into peoples windows
My warrior is blinded, the war seems obscure, and it is easy to place my hands on this brain tissue and push away
Yet some days the sun forgets to rise for a while
And it is easier to fall back asleep and stay in bed until it does
Later the sun is drawn back into the billowing pillows of clouds
And its time to take a bath before I lay my head down again
So I run the water
Ring the salty drops from my eyes
Washing away the images of the war
I am a missionary, my own missionary
Here to fight a war for me
Against me
Against my depression
In me
I'm fighting a war with myself
My body
My mind
My thoughts
On the rough terrain of the cerebellum
My feat are starting to hurt
I'm getting weary
For going out every day fighting the pain
Trying to stop it from trickling down to my heart
And every night gun shots inside my eardrums
Trying to penetrate the thick wall my depression has put up
Separating me from the rest of the war
Maybe someday the war will end
And I can go home and be happy
Every soldiers dream
This war is weakness and anger against itself
Others judge me, standing trying to block out my own screams
They don't see a solider
Just a teenage girl
And her problems
They think the reason I cry is because I have had a rough life
Not because everyday the walls of this depression fall in closer
That it's a normal feat for a teenager
So let them judge
This is a one-person war
I am my own worst enemy
With battle scars to prove it
If they could imagine their worst day
Magnify that by ten
Then maybe they would know what I am fighting against living
Every day, as the sun brings light into peoples windows
My warrior is blinded, the war seems obscure, and it is easy to place my hands on this brain tissue and push away
Yet some days the sun forgets to rise for a while
And it is easier to fall back asleep and stay in bed until it does
Later the sun is drawn back into the billowing pillows of clouds
And its time to take a bath before I lay my head down again
So I run the water
Ring the salty drops from my eyes
Washing away the images of the war
I am a missionary, my own missionary
Here to fight a war for me
Against me
Against my depression
In me
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